When I was working on my Master Of Fine Arts in Writing at The School of the Art Institute graduating student’s work was presented in a collection. The year I graduated the published collection was titled COLLECTED.
For several months a panel, or a committee of fellow MFAW students chose the stories, formatted and edited them for inclusion into the collection. Each graduating member was supposed to have a story included.
Right before the collection went to press one member, who knew me personally, noted that my story had been excluded. When she brought this up to the panel there were crickets – no one responded. It was as if my story had been purposefully omitted. In that group was a male member who had once made fun of my writing genre – horror specifically – and now that person went on to write a horror novel. Funny, I wonder what the horror community would think about his comments.
Anyways, it was because that one person who knew me that my story was included. You can tell there is something off about the collection as it is in alphabetical order, but my story is shoved at the very end, something to be forgotten and ignored.
I’m definitely feeling that – forgotten and ignored right now.
Of course I’m wondering what do I do now? Do I write another book? Some short stories? Poems? Take a break from writing? Stop writing altogether?
I wrote my most recent novel to be a horror novel, but to be a mystery/horror hybrid. Now I’m wondering if I should have just stayed true to myself and not pushed it to have a heavy mystery feel? I don’t know. I’m not a mystery writer. I’m a horror writer, and I spent some time really trying to figure that out. I don’t write cozy’s, or cute mysteries – I write horror that is brutal and horrific.
As always, I’m trying to stay positive, but it’s very hard. It’s hard to be a writer, and exist in a writing community and see people all around you get agents, book deals, movie deals, and awards and you’re literally waiting for mainstream break.
I’ve worked really hard, and sometimes it seems as though no matter how hard I’ve worked it doesn’t matter because luck is such a huge part of publishing success.